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Bed Time Story
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Monday, February 20, 2006 @ 10:28 PM toDAE i WAs toTaLly sAD!!!! On 13/2 mOn, i mit pek haVing Lunch in scH.. but 'he' ask mi y i din go eat wif him!! i ignoRE him.. while i reach sch, liang n pek was in the canteen le.. while i was walkin in the canteen i saw KK tat group.. i feel so pai seh n i din look at em, i jus conti walkin.. after havin moi lunch wif em, i went back to claSs.. i saw 'him' sittin there alone.. i jus act as nth happen..while i reach moi class, i wanan go locker to take moi books.. 'he' sae he wan to acc mi, i refuse.. but he insisted.. den while goin down the stairs, he wanna hold mi but i dun wan. 'he' ask mi tat issit i rreali wan to treat him as fren? i sae ya.. think b frens better.. 'he' walk v fast back to class n take his bag n go home.. while on the way he make a cor n ask dunno hu cum fetch him.. i saw micky n jin kun went to find him.. he ask mi tat in the morn issit pek sent mi to sch? i sae NO.. i took ccab to sch de lo.. i was too sad n i went to toilet. in the toilet i dunno y suddenly moi tears burst out.. i sat in the toilet for almost 1/2 to 1 hrs time.. i tot he will cum back but he did not.. kk noe tat i was cryin in the toilet he ask mi m i ok?? i sae ya.. den he cloase the door for mi. i call pek but he heard mi cryin n he ask wat happen to mi n i told him.. den he sae he cum find mi... i told him tat when he reach gif mi a call den i go out.. when he reacch he gifs mi a cal.. i walk v fast to class n take moi bag n i go findd pek.. he sent mi home.. its So Fun To sIt his Bike, itS MOi FIrST Time To Sit It Wor.. HEhe.. at nite, mei yi call mi to go out eat wif em.. i agree her.. n asfter sch i go find her present.. pek acc mi.. den i brought her a micky hp pouch for her.. i dunno wat to gif her since i wanan buy for moi self den tot of buyin tat for her lo.. at nite everyone goin too.. its so fun./. while we havin the dinner half way, mom call meh yi n sae she will joinin us now.. i was so happy.. when she came, ah gong keep askin her to drink martel.. its so enjoyin.. after havin dinner, we seprate way goin home.. but meh yi keep askin everyone go ah gong hse a while.. den moi dad dun wan.. but i the car i ask em to go.. so mom cal meh yi n make double confirm.. we was the second person to reach ah gong hse.. ah gong they all isthe first one to reach.. while i reach there i sit on the so fa.. suddenly saw ah gong was holding on the mahjong table to support n was standin it.. he looks So uncomfortable.. he ask mom to help him to open his belt but moi toot mom dunno how to open den she call pong gu to help.. they took v long den can open .. when they can open it, suddenly ah gong Pissed out.. everyone was luffin at him but i didnt.. den after tat he went to toilet. to make cake n took a bath.. .grandma keep callin him but he din respond till moi mom call him again he got respond.. after he finish bathin, mom they all bring him to the room n get changed.. moi uncle help him change.. after changing suddenly he was strugglin.. his faCE Looks pale.. den his teeth bitin together.. moi mom they all was so scare n keep callin him n moi aunt put her hand into his mouth so tat he wont bite it.. din noe tat suddenly his leg no energy n he goin to fall, so moi aunt supportin him by carryin him.. but suddenly he close his eyes.. i faster went in to call him by beatin his leg... while beatin it, i was cryin badly.. n i keep callin him to wake up.. while we conti wakin him, we were waitin for the amblu.. it took em damn long to cum... fuck.. if they cum early aha gong wont die.. when they came, they check his heart beat.. but they sae he was dead.. we was so sad.. everyone cryin badly.. all moi cousin went to bai sen there to pray.. all kneen down n pray.. but still wont work.. den they carry moi ah gong to livin room.. i keep wakin him up.. din stop.. but his nails become black.. i went to touch his face n keep prayin n hope he can wake up;... but a man came in.. to do the coffin n funeral things.. i keep tellin moiself tat all is jus a dream.. so wish tat i was dreamin..wakin moi grandpa till a man goin to bring him to put make up, moi mom cryin badly.. she holdin his leg n dun let em to carry away.. moi dad was beside her keep consolin her.. i was lookin at how they wrap moi grandpa using white cloth.. i miSSSSSSSSSS him baDLy............ y he must leave us so fast.. why?? i regret din play mahjong wif him when tat time he landed in hos n i was promisin him.. but i din do it....... sob... i still haven takin foto wif him ... i wan to but din do it.. sob sob.... sob sob.. den after tat we went back home n slp.. the nix dae morn at 8 we reach the funeral..we were so busy doin the thing in funeral..i keep go in look at him.. i cry lots.. i din go sch for whole weeks... on the last dae while goin to chu bin.. all the bands came.. while they were playin, ah kor n pong ku was sing duet hokkien song.. its sooooooooo sad.. den hing gu oso got sing.. after tat while all the ppl playin the cheng thing, after finishin, i CRy damn badly... cry till goin to faint... i KEeP callin him.. ah hui came n console mi.. i reali dun wan him to leave us.. i miss him v badly.. i everydae keep thinkin tat i got feelin tat i was dreamin.. but i'm not/. keep tellin moiself tat i was dreamin but cnat..sob sob.. den we took foto wif the car.. den after tat we walkin.. till the second bus stop, den we got up the bus/ i sat wif ah nah.. i fall aslp in e bus.. when we reach the place whea we nid to burn it.. we keep sakin him to move n run fire is cumin to burn him.. i shout damn loud.. so tat he can heard it . while callin him, we canot cry got to ren.. after tat suddenly ah bo faint.. all was so scare n keep callin her name.. den her mom n some moi aunt n uncle help her to wake her up.. finally she wake up.. den we got in the bus n goin home.. i misS him Sooooooooo Much.......... 20.2: todae 'he' msg mi tat r we reali got to b frenS?? i sae ya.. hope he understand.. den he sae he wont b schoolin anymore.. he will b quittin.. i heard it i was shock. den i cal him ask him y he wont b cumin, he sae he now no mood to talk asl mi dun call him den he hang up. i ws so angry...i wont b callin u n msg u since u ask mi not to do so.. FFINE.. I WILL LISTEN TO U.. CANT U THINK FOR MI?? WHEN I IN THE FUNERAL DID U CONSOLE MI?? DID U CARE FOR MI?? Y U OWAYS THINK FOR URSELF ?? CNAT U SPARE A TOT FOR MI?? Y U THINK TAT ALL IS MOI FAULT COS I LEAVE U.. IF U WAN TO THINK TAT WAE GO AHEAD.. I GOT NTH TO SAE.. JUS CAN ONLI SAE SORRY TO U./. YAI NOE OUR R.S IS REALI FUCKIN.. THINK NO POINT EXPLAIN TO U.. BYE.. SOB SOB SOB SOB SOB SOB SOB SOB SOB SOB SOB ....... ='( |
